A beautiful poem for our beautiful Charlie

I find listening to music very therapeutic. It allows my mind to drift off and to almost not have to think. It allows me to escape from the reality at times when I am finding it hard to cope with Charlies loss. Sometimes I like to listen to music to help me think about Charlie and other times I want to listen to music that totally takes my mind away from the reality of life and escape to another world. I hope you enjoy some of my musical choices.

poems

I wonder what color my balloons will be,
but as a nanna it doesn't matter to me.
It can be many colors, I choose red, green and yellow,
I think I will pick a color for a fellow.
I will let that yellow one go to the sky
and it will fly very high.
Until it reaches heaven for a boy
and he will be filled with so much joy.
I will keep the other two balloons for his future brothers and sisters.
And they will be filled with Charlies whispers.
Charlie didn't live very long and so
his mother had to let him go.
He will always be in our hearts,
He will be forever our special sweetheart.
So anytime you see a balloon float by,
think of that someone you love in the sky.



Are there rocking chairs in Heaven
where little babies go?
Do the angels hold you closely
and rock you to and fro? 

Do they talk silly baby talk
to get a smile or two,
and sing the sleepy lullabies
I used to sing to you?

My heart is aching for you,
my angel child so dear.
You brought such joy into my life,
the short time you were here.

I know you're in a happy place,
and in God's loving care.
I dream each night I'm rocking you
in Heaven's rocking chair.

Dear Charlie,

Nanna Curtis here, just wanted to write you a letter to let you know I am thinking of you. I think of you everyday but some days are harder than others.
I often sit here and wonder what you would be doing and what you would look like.
I hope that where ever you are they are treating you well and you are happy. I wish there was a window we could see you through to make sure that you are ok.
I miss being able to see you each day and watch you develop into a young boy. I miss being able to go and buy you little outfits and toys and I often find myself looking at them in shops.
It is currently the summer holidays and I wish I was sitting here planning with your mummy a day trip to the seaside with you both. To be able to watch you playing on the beach and having a little paddle would be so lovely. To be able to take you into the arcades and play on the 2p machines and try and win you a teddy in the grabber machines. I'm still going to go to the seaside with your mummy and we will build a sandcastle for you little man.
Last week me and grandad did a sponsored walk in your memory. There were times when it got very difficult and painful for grandad but each time he felt like stopping he kept thinking of you and it pushed him on to complete it.
It made us feel very proud to tell the people we met on the route about you, and to have the banner on the back of the motor home with your beautiful face on  for everyone to see.
Will write to you again soon
Love and miss you so much little man
Nanna xxxxx

songs for charlie

It amazes us a family just how far we have come and what we have achieved since Charlie died, we have raised funds around £3000, set up a charity www.Charlies-Angel-Centre.org.uk put on fundraising events such as walk for Charlie 2013, Charity Auction, a family fun day, plus Coast to Coast for Charlie we have also campaigned for better bereavement services in leeds and on a national scale, and  forced Leeds NHS to conduct a review on bereavement serives, we still have a long way to go and lots things we need to achieve along the way and support is vital, there are many ways you can support us there is social media or through one of our events or even your own events, below are just a few ways you can help us and the 1000s of bereaved parents and familys that need help and support

https://www.facebook.com/CharliesAngelCentre?ref=hl
Twitter @Charlie29122012
google+ https://plus.google.com/u/0/112336704422334824960/posts/p/pub

Today we completed our coast to coast walk for Charlie. The lads have walked 130 miles over a 3 1/2 day period. Day 2 saw them walk from Gisurn to just outside Knaresborough. They made really good time and even found a short cut meaning that they ended the day ahead of schedule. We spent night 3 in a quiet lay by near Green Hammerton. Both men had to endure a cold shower as we couldn't work out how to heat the water (lol). Another good meal of pasta and a cold shandy helped them to both relax. I spent my evening popping Gary's blisters, someone had to do it !! We all slept really well again and were up and ready to go on day 3 by 8am. Day 3 of walking saw us go from Green Hammerton to Malton. We managed to find a lovely camp site, Wolds way caravan and camping, and the kind owner allowed us to stay on the site for a very reduced rate as we were doing a charity event. Thanks go to Derek and Carol Watson and Del for their support and friendliness. The camp was amazing with views all over North Yorkshire. There was also the added bonus of warm showers and a bath. Dan made the most of this and had a shower in the evening and the morning. Gary decided to soak his feet in ice to try and reduce the swelling and aches. It made it easier and less painful as well for me to then sort out the blisters and plasters.
Day 4 our final day of walking and we were up and away just before 8am. Despite the pain Gary was determined to carry on for Charlie. Luckily the route from Malton to Scarborough is generally flat. We arrived into Scarborough at 12.45pm and after meeting up at the harbour car park we all went down onto the beach. Gary took off his boots and just walked out into the sea. Dan didnt even bother to take his boots off. We then went and did as all good tourists do, bought rock, ate seafood and then had fish and chips.
I feel very proud to have been part of this walk and am very proud of Gary and Dan for completing it.