Since Carrie got pregnant with Charlie we have all come into contact with lots and lots of professional people.

 We started off with the lady carrying out the scan which then led us onto nurse specialists and consultant paediatricians.  We have had contact with numerous midwives both before and after Charlie’s birth, different levels of doctors from junior doctors to anaesthetists.

 Most of these people were really nice and treated us with respect and empathy.

 None however could give us any answers as to why this was happening.

 We all expect the professionals to have the answers and to be able to help us to do things to make the situation right.

We couldn't get that. 

This didn't make any sense, how come no one could help Charlie.

 In my head I could understand all the medical jargon that was being used and I understood that there was very little medical intervention that could help. 

But in my heart I was crying out for someone to just tell me what I could do to make the situation better. 

I wanted someone to tell me how we could get Carrie through this without her heart being broken, how we could all come out the other side of this intact, emotionally and physically.